i just wanna get the hell outta here.

so i got a little report of the evaluation that i had last week with the lady who did my CADI evaluation (last week) in the mail today. i read through the whole thing and the lady pretty much insinuates that my GRANDMA left me a TRUST.. *rolls eyes and shakes head*. whatever. my grandma could barely even fuckin pay for her own damn funeral but SOMEHOW she pulled THIS money outta her ass. then at the end of the report, it says that the next steps should be for me to get a referral for assistance with housing for new york city and services. it doesn't say where i'm supposed to get these referrals from but i just read that i should work with an assessor or case manager to develop a coordinated services and supports plan for the public program that i have chosen. i just don't want them to reduce my services or budget and i'll be shit outta luck without a place to live in new york because i'll have REDUCED EVERYTHING ALREADY AND NO ONE FUCKIN WORKED TO HELP MAKE SURE THAT I WAS GETTING THE ASSISTANCE THAT I NEEDED TO GET THE ASSISTANCE I NEEDED TO LIVE SUCCESSFULLY IN NEW YORK. i've emailed erin asking her if anyone is looking for housing in new york for me and.. *gasps* SHE NEVER GOT BACK TO ME! *rolls eyes* i'm so shocked. i also got an email either yesterday or today from the voc. rehab. lady, telling me that she THOUGHT that the guy was ready to start voc. rehab. with me this wednesday but she had to check with him to check on my schedule.. i'm not sure if she's talking outta her ass though because it feels like she said this EXACT same thing the last time my ils worker emailed her and about me starting that same wednesday too. i'm not sure if it's just my weird memory but i could've SWORE that i remember her saying that EXACT same thing the last time she asked her about vocational rehabilitation.